I have written a lot over the last decade, but don't recall ever exploring 'mom' like I have below.
I share this in honor of and gratitude for ALL mothers.
She scares me.
As I huddle in the corner on the floor of the bathroom, knees to chin, arms wrapped around legs, heart pounding wildly, she continues to grab chaotically at the door handle from the other side and shake it, alternately banging on the door, while, simultaneously speaking and screaming in a range that would have impressed even the most seasoned vocal coach.
What she would have done exactly if she would have caught me I’m not sure.
I had been chased around the house several times before by this madwoman, who a few moments before had been my mother, wielding a wooden spoon, the same disharmonious and cantankerous melodies riding in the air.
It was much more terrifying being chased than actually being caught by her. In her rage she never managed to strike that well, which caused me to laugh hysterically, sometimes until tears came. Although I’m not sure if the laughter and tears came from the absurdity of the situation, or out of nervousness, or shock, or from the pain when she did manage to land on target, or, maybe it was just terror.
Probably, it was a combination of many things.
As I got to my teen years I rebelled like crazy, got into alcohol and drugs and began to put on more weight every year. It didn’t really occur to me that anything unusual had occurred in my childhood. I knew it got a bit out of hand at times, but it wasn’t until I went to have lunch with mom when I was several months pregnant with my daughter that I got a sense of just how bad it might have actually been.
We were in the house I grew up in, preparing the food in the kitchen, when all of the sudden she went running out of the room. Literally running. I followed her path down the hallway, and then down a flight of stairs to the bathroom where I found her crying uncontrollably. “Mom!” I said, “What happened, what’s wrong?!”
“I am.... so.... sorry,” she said between sobs. “I treated you.... so horrible.”
“Oh, mom, it wasn’t that bad. I mean, you know, everyone gets angry. It’s okay.”
“I did awful things...to you. Awful Things. I... am... so sorry.”
I consoled her the best I could, not really knowing what she was talking about since I didn’t have a lot of memories from childhood (which I found out later wasn’t so normal either). I remembered those incidents of being chased, and the sudden angry outbursts, things flying across the room, thrown in anger, but they didn’t seem to warrant the overwhelming guilt that as of today she hasn’t been able to completely shake, even though my daughter is now twenty.
After my daughter was born, stories began to slip from my grandmother’s lips. After at few glasses of champagne at holiday gatherings, the two of us would be smoking cigarettes outside, the presence of a toddler with some of my features triggering memories, in spite of efforts to block them.
“My God,” she said more than once, “It would get so bad, so horrible, that I would have to leave. I couldn’t stand to watch the things she would do to you.”
I never knew how to respond to that, and didn’t care for any more than the few details that came my way. I wanted to move on. I wanted peace. I wanted closure.
I wanted to be a different kind of mother.
Some years back, when my daughter was about ten, a letter came in the mail from my mom. She apologized again in this note, and then thanked me for being the kind of mother she wasn’t able to be. She thanked me for breaking the cycle of cruelty, violence and abuse.
I am so grateful for her courage in her own transformation and healing.
During a healing session about four years ago, a time when I was experiencing a betrayal in another area of my life which left me feeling unprotected and exposed, I was guided by the practitioner to ask Archangel Michael to assist. The response that came immediately into my mind was surprising,
“I would be doing you a disservice if I interfered. I cannot take your karma from you, because within your karma is your dharma. I would never take from you an opportunity of such tremendous potential and significance to your soul and to the world.”
This message resonated so deeply within, not just in regards to that present time challenge, but in regards to all impossibly challenging situations that had come my way. There had always come with them a sense of a deeper meaning and opportunity.
Today mom is a wonderful support and friend. I am so grateful for her presence in my life. It has been a beautiful and humbling experience to be a mother myself of such a fiery, intelligent and willful child, which opened the door early on for great compassion for my mother. I could see in moments of stress and overwhelm how easy it could be to give in to those inherited patterns, planted so deeply in the psyche that they felt like the ‘natural’ response. I am grateful to mom for playing a role in my life which created ‘such tremendous potential’ for me today. I don’t think she believes me, or understands me, when I tell her she was the mother that I needed her to be. That I could not do what I do today, or be here in the same way, without that experience.
These revelations of the perfection of the plan, that we really do choose our parents, that everything is of love and serves love, didn’t come easy, and they are not superficial spiritual bypasses. It took tremendous patience and willingness, and inner work, to transform and get to the other side, and understand as an alchemist does, that every element present is used to create gold. The appreciation and gratitude for the awareness that is here today has no price. It is nothing short of spiritual gold. She truly was, and is, the perfect mother.
This song Angel’s Footprints was written about a decade ago,
in gratitude for all of our “angels of transformation”....
This is not the first time
we’ve met on this earth plane,
Mother, Brother, Sister, Lover
our souls remains the same
Wearing a mask of darkness
Wearing a mask of hate
Here’s the mask of the sinner
I’ll wear this one of the saint
At first I thought I’d been
trampled upon
But now that I know the Truth
I can see that I was wrong....
You were the angel, that helped me find my way,
Back to my power, back to my strength,
Back to my greatness, back to my faith,
You were the angel....
I bow to you today
In celebration of mother's day, consider the ways your mother was perfect for you, not necessarily in the hallmark greeting card fashion, (although that of COURSE counts ;), but in potentially developing the spiritual qualities of your soul, however that may be playing out. If there are any judgements of the way mom “should have been” or “should be”, you may want to journal and work to own any projections, and also consider the possibility that you really did choose the experiencing of mothering that you had. It could be no other way.
Life does not make mistakes.
Therefore, You do not make any mistakes.
All is Perfect.
In Gratitude
for Divine Mother,
for Earth Mother,
and for all beings who have chosen
to take on the awesome charge and
role of ‘mother’ on the earth plane,
Goddess Bless Us All!
Happy Mother’s Day,
Jaia
Saturday, May 12, 2012
Thursday, May 3, 2012
The 'First Supper' Experience
Blessings Beautiful Being of Bliss!
What a flow it has been and continues to be. The other day on Beltane I spoke with several who were feeling the May Day energy in a powerful way. Feeling as if we have shifted beyond the inner cries of ‘mayday mayday’, even while many of us continue to be personally challenged with great change and uncertainty in the 3D. We are so ever more aware of the greater Reality and this outrageous Divine opportunity we have all secured our front row seats for. The event of not just a lifetime, but thousands of lifetimes, is upon us! Can you feel it?
Some of us have felt it since we were children, knowing we were here for something great, something much greater than we heard anyone talking about. Many times this inner sense was translated into a personal destiny alone, but it is a collective one, with our own personal mission part of something much greater than we could imagine. Some of us feel ‘new on the field’ and have only recently begun to remember those undreamed of potentials and soul intentions which go far beyond working on the material level for what we 'think' is good, or 'think' is right, or 'think' period.
After that radical inner shift many years ago which changed everything in my life, I began to wonder if there was a way to eat which would assist in maintaining this inner change. Since I had struggled with weight for many years, eventually reaching 250 pounds, I knew just about every diet out there, but I was only introduced to living food as a full meal several years after, and immediately ‘knew’ it was the answer to that wondering. I also find it interesting that those who initially eat a living food diet for health reasons report that they begin to experience a heightened spiritual awareness, without that being the focus. That ‘first supper’ ;) was about ten years ago and in my further ‘experiments’ I have yet to find a way of nourishing the body that feels so much in alignment with spiritual qualities such as peace, wholeness, light, love, life, beauty, on all levels.
In my own personal experience, and in leading online cleanses since 2008, I am still amazed to see just how much people shift when they experiment with this apparently radical way of eating. It really depends on how you look at it though. No longer getting annual colds or flu, or having to take pain medications, or live with 'incurable' diseases, or living on an emotional roller coaster, or not having a persistent lack of energy and mental clarity (ascension symptoms and clearing aside! ) IS a pretty radical way to live in today’s world. The non-radical and normal way is to have a medicine cabinet full of synthetic drugs which often only help us to suppress symptoms which have many times been caused by our disconnection with Spirit, yes, and also our disconnection with the Mother and the numerous ideal plant foods, full of high level protein, carbs, fat, enzymes, amino acids, vitamins, minerals, structured water, fiber, etc, She has provided for us in Her wisdom.
What sounds radical now?
This is not the only answer to wholeness and healing, of course, but it is a significant part of the equation and many foods deemed healthy and natural are food that lack the living enzymes and basic structure created by Mother Nature and which are innately recognized by the body and the easiest to assimilate and use.
It had been mentioned at a raw food festival by a known breatharian ( one who sustains the body with light and cosmic energy and no longer needing food or water ) that there were approximately 40,000 people who were currently 'feeding' themselves at that level on the planet. Many of those way out there are often under the radar, don’t have websites, etc. and while this number is totally unprovable and therefore here-say, in these times I wouldn’t say it is unlikely. This feels to be the direction we may be all going as we ascend into higher levels of being.
Still, for those of you not at the breatharian level quite yet, and not intending to go from a burrito, chips and salsa to sun-gazing tomorrow, below is an opportunity if you are in fact feeling called to up level and experiment with the effect superfood/living food eating has on consciousness, the Mother Earth, and potentially all areas of your life!
If the 'First Supper', or the Food of the Goddess, is speaking to your heart (and all of your beautiful light filled cells) let me know soon, we start on May 11th, next Friday!!
Blessings & Divine Apetit !
Jaia
Friday, April 27, 2012
Divine As Nature= New Earth
(originally posted on Earth Day, April 22, 2012)
Blessings on this beautiful Earth Day!
Today I saw a talk given by a woman who represented the Global Alliance for the Rights of Nature which was very inspiring and which dovetailed into what has been emerging on a deeper level in these past months; the reawakening of the Divine Feminine.
In some ways the recent interest began with the intention of completing one of the books that has been asking for attention. There are many books now, in various levels of completion, hence the feminine way of multitasking and the ability to nurture and take care of many ‘children’ as they grow. Being present to, listening, and allowing each one to evolve in it’s own time and manner.
The book that has recently found the most attention is one involving the living food path I’ve been involved with over the last decade. After leading cleanses for several years it had been suggested that a book be created from the material used. So what began as a book on cleansing, purifying, and recognizing the effects of our food choices on the environment has evolved into including material coming from devas, elementals, earth spirits, faeries, and the Mother Earth.
Years ago when the Living Beyond Belief book was written, it was written with the same energy of allowing for the theme and material to present itself, rather than going in with an idea, or an outline, and attempting to dictate a message. I initially tried to do it that way, but nothing was happening. I have been meeting and talking with many women ( and some men too) who can no longer create in a predominantly masculine energy and some are in great judgment of themselves, and worried, thinking there is something wrong. There is nothing wrong. This has been happening for many of us over the last decade especially. We are being called to something deeper. Intuition, receptivity, deep listening, feeling, holding, nurturing, being, trusting, knowing. There is no need to force, there is no idea to prove or concept to attach to. There is action on behalf of the heart and soul. The Living Beyond Belief book sprang from the loins as well as gushed from the heart. It had a life of it’s own and felt as if it was a force of nature. There was no discipline involved in writing it- it had come to place where it could not not be written.
The Feminine aspect has been an ongoing and central interest for many years, since it is so clear the deep change and great shift talked about is centered around the re-emergence of the Feminine. Since it had been so systematically wiped out by a patriarchal way of seeing, being and living, it is a challenge for many women (and men) to even understand what had been lost, much less bring it back.
But, it is happening none the less. It will happen with or without us. If we refuse the call to depth, to the shadow, to the wild, to the unknown and the uncontrollable, we will deeply regret it. Not because we will be punished for it, although that may be how we will experience it, but because we will miss the greater opportunity to realize our nature not only as Spirit but as Nature Itself. We will miss the communion with the Mother, along with the Father, and a way of living on Earth that is only now becoming a possibility in these times.
Women will lead this new becoming, not by years of university training or astute logic, but by the wisdom encased within as they learn to turn further inside of themselves and trust what has always been. Men will not follow women, but allow themselves to be guided within as well, and become co-creative partners in this new awakening. A place where human is not sinful by nature, but Divine as Nature. Where the conceptual and intellectual mind is appreciated but not revered as all knowing. And where Peace, Joy, Beauty, Freedom are no longer etheric energies and wished for realities but manifest as the New Heaven New Earth.
This will take impossible changes from every one of us. The same kind of impossibility of the caterpillar becoming the butterfly. We will be called to change in ways we cannot even imagine, some areas of our lives or ways of being will completely melt down. Many of us have already begun this process, are deeply engaged in it now, or are on the other side and guiding others through it, while still engaged in an ever deepening becoming.
Blessings to all beings,
including the two leggeds and four leggeds, the earth bound and flying ones, the trees, rocks, streams, oceans, lakes, plants, flowers, hills, mountains, forests, to all realms and dimensions of the Mother, to those of the Inner Earth,
Blessings.
May we all living in Harmony.
If the Mother beckons to you, or if you feel so moved, please go to this website and sign the petition for the rights of the mother earth.
www.rightsofmotherearth.com
Stay tuned for samples of the new book as it meanders on into form, as well as other offerings, events, classes.....
Allowing for all to emerge in and from the Field of Dreams and the Joy of Being....
In Service to Life
In Service As Life
And So It
Already
Is
Blessings on this beautiful Earth Day!
Today I saw a talk given by a woman who represented the Global Alliance for the Rights of Nature which was very inspiring and which dovetailed into what has been emerging on a deeper level in these past months; the reawakening of the Divine Feminine.
In some ways the recent interest began with the intention of completing one of the books that has been asking for attention. There are many books now, in various levels of completion, hence the feminine way of multitasking and the ability to nurture and take care of many ‘children’ as they grow. Being present to, listening, and allowing each one to evolve in it’s own time and manner.
The book that has recently found the most attention is one involving the living food path I’ve been involved with over the last decade. After leading cleanses for several years it had been suggested that a book be created from the material used. So what began as a book on cleansing, purifying, and recognizing the effects of our food choices on the environment has evolved into including material coming from devas, elementals, earth spirits, faeries, and the Mother Earth.
Years ago when the Living Beyond Belief book was written, it was written with the same energy of allowing for the theme and material to present itself, rather than going in with an idea, or an outline, and attempting to dictate a message. I initially tried to do it that way, but nothing was happening. I have been meeting and talking with many women ( and some men too) who can no longer create in a predominantly masculine energy and some are in great judgment of themselves, and worried, thinking there is something wrong. There is nothing wrong. This has been happening for many of us over the last decade especially. We are being called to something deeper. Intuition, receptivity, deep listening, feeling, holding, nurturing, being, trusting, knowing. There is no need to force, there is no idea to prove or concept to attach to. There is action on behalf of the heart and soul. The Living Beyond Belief book sprang from the loins as well as gushed from the heart. It had a life of it’s own and felt as if it was a force of nature. There was no discipline involved in writing it- it had come to place where it could not not be written.
The Feminine aspect has been an ongoing and central interest for many years, since it is so clear the deep change and great shift talked about is centered around the re-emergence of the Feminine. Since it had been so systematically wiped out by a patriarchal way of seeing, being and living, it is a challenge for many women (and men) to even understand what had been lost, much less bring it back.
But, it is happening none the less. It will happen with or without us. If we refuse the call to depth, to the shadow, to the wild, to the unknown and the uncontrollable, we will deeply regret it. Not because we will be punished for it, although that may be how we will experience it, but because we will miss the greater opportunity to realize our nature not only as Spirit but as Nature Itself. We will miss the communion with the Mother, along with the Father, and a way of living on Earth that is only now becoming a possibility in these times.
Women will lead this new becoming, not by years of university training or astute logic, but by the wisdom encased within as they learn to turn further inside of themselves and trust what has always been. Men will not follow women, but allow themselves to be guided within as well, and become co-creative partners in this new awakening. A place where human is not sinful by nature, but Divine as Nature. Where the conceptual and intellectual mind is appreciated but not revered as all knowing. And where Peace, Joy, Beauty, Freedom are no longer etheric energies and wished for realities but manifest as the New Heaven New Earth.
This will take impossible changes from every one of us. The same kind of impossibility of the caterpillar becoming the butterfly. We will be called to change in ways we cannot even imagine, some areas of our lives or ways of being will completely melt down. Many of us have already begun this process, are deeply engaged in it now, or are on the other side and guiding others through it, while still engaged in an ever deepening becoming.
Blessings to all beings,
including the two leggeds and four leggeds, the earth bound and flying ones, the trees, rocks, streams, oceans, lakes, plants, flowers, hills, mountains, forests, to all realms and dimensions of the Mother, to those of the Inner Earth,
Blessings.
May we all living in Harmony.
If the Mother beckons to you, or if you feel so moved, please go to this website and sign the petition for the rights of the mother earth.
www.rightsofmotherearth.com
Stay tuned for samples of the new book as it meanders on into form, as well as other offerings, events, classes.....
Allowing for all to emerge in and from the Field of Dreams and the Joy of Being....
In Service to Life
In Service As Life
And So It
Already
Is
Friday, April 6, 2012
A Good Day (Friday) to Die
On this Good Friday I have been reflecting upon how my ideas and practices of this season have expanded over the years.
In childhood my Oma (Grandma) would buy matching dresses for me and my sister (which actually brings mixed emotions. To note, it did bring much joy to Oma.) On Easter morning we would find delightfully full Easter baskets that some amazingly gifted bunny had left somewhere in the house, go have brunch at a beautiful hotel, ice sculptures, minstrels, and all, and, usually somewhere in there an Easter egg hunt would also take place, with all the children amped out on bunny chocolate.
Gosh that was fun stuff!
As we got older my sister and I eventually boycotted the matching dress deal, which was met with much resistance, but I think we actually won out when I was about thirteen. (No, I will not be posting pictures!)
As I got older, rather than looking forward to getting an Easter dress or basket, the brunch and bottomless champagne was the main attraction (but at over 200 pounds the bunny chocolate still had it's appeal, if you know what I mean). Hmmm... just how much champagne could one drink while still maintaining balance on high heels and several trips to the buffet line? But, you know, even that was kind of fun too. Well, sort of.
But these days it's a whole different kind of life and a whole different kind of fun. These days the fun begins on the Spring Equinox with an outdoor ceremony and connection with the Mother. A celebration of Her cycles and deep wisdom of the Feminine.
When we get to Good Friday we are reminded of the very real possibility of outrageous transformation. Too bad religion has put such a heavy sinful trip on us all-- I mean Jesus, he wouldn't have done that! He said follow me, greater things shall ye do. Holy Cow. Forget the bunny chocolate ( unless it's raw and high quality ), forget the champagne, how fun is experientally, first hand, realizing your true eternal nature- that who you really are was never born and can never die! This is wild fun stuff!!
A favorite quote is from the movie "Shawshank Redemption", where Red says, "Either get busy living, or get busy dying."
Great advice.
Alrighty then, let's do this thing ;)
Letting go of what never was, in order for What Is to reveal Itself fully and wonderfully and beautifully!!
Have a Good Friday and a Shockingly Transformative Weekend-
See you at the celebration on Sunday!
And, Always in the Now...
In childhood my Oma (Grandma) would buy matching dresses for me and my sister (which actually brings mixed emotions. To note, it did bring much joy to Oma.) On Easter morning we would find delightfully full Easter baskets that some amazingly gifted bunny had left somewhere in the house, go have brunch at a beautiful hotel, ice sculptures, minstrels, and all, and, usually somewhere in there an Easter egg hunt would also take place, with all the children amped out on bunny chocolate.
Gosh that was fun stuff!
As we got older my sister and I eventually boycotted the matching dress deal, which was met with much resistance, but I think we actually won out when I was about thirteen. (No, I will not be posting pictures!)
As I got older, rather than looking forward to getting an Easter dress or basket, the brunch and bottomless champagne was the main attraction (but at over 200 pounds the bunny chocolate still had it's appeal, if you know what I mean). Hmmm... just how much champagne could one drink while still maintaining balance on high heels and several trips to the buffet line? But, you know, even that was kind of fun too. Well, sort of.
But these days it's a whole different kind of life and a whole different kind of fun. These days the fun begins on the Spring Equinox with an outdoor ceremony and connection with the Mother. A celebration of Her cycles and deep wisdom of the Feminine.
When we get to Good Friday we are reminded of the very real possibility of outrageous transformation. Too bad religion has put such a heavy sinful trip on us all-- I mean Jesus, he wouldn't have done that! He said follow me, greater things shall ye do. Holy Cow. Forget the bunny chocolate ( unless it's raw and high quality ), forget the champagne, how fun is experientally, first hand, realizing your true eternal nature- that who you really are was never born and can never die! This is wild fun stuff!!
A favorite quote is from the movie "Shawshank Redemption", where Red says, "Either get busy living, or get busy dying."
Great advice.
Alrighty then, let's do this thing ;)
Letting go of what never was, in order for What Is to reveal Itself fully and wonderfully and beautifully!!
Have a Good Friday and a Shockingly Transformative Weekend-
See you at the celebration on Sunday!
And, Always in the Now...
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Knowing without knowing, i.e. Living Beyond Belief
What a wonderful time to be.... It comes to share apologies to those who were interested in starting the Living Beyond Belief class after being on the calls last December and January. The phrase that comes to mind is "If you want to make God laugh, tell her your plans." ( I'm still laughing, ha, ha ha, ha ha) (see) ( no, really, ha ha ha)
What with our interviewer having a last minute emergency on the first call, then several technical difficulties, then a flow that took me somewhere else for a bit, it seemed the message coming through in regards to the online Living Beyond Belief class was definitely, "not now". So, it went on the back burner. And then the mad scientist aspect went a bit nuts and put everything on the back burner and went out and sat in nature and such for a few months.
From this, it feels a much deeper understanding of the work has now revealed itself. And, after this extended time in reflection I can share with you today this great insight that has come and which can now change everything :
I have NO IDEA how to do what I do.
And, not only that, but I really have NO IDEA what it exactly is that I do.
This may not sound like much. And in fact, it may sound a lot worse than not much. But it really does define the Living Beyond Belief energy and "how to ditch the life your mind created and start living the one your soul intended". Simple. You don't. You will never be able to do it. And, if you find you are the one that is doing it, it's not it. It's your mind creating it's idea of something that it thinks is good or has been conditioned to desire.
And of course there is nothing wrong with creating a good life for yourself, it is just that creating a good life is not exactly Living Beyond Belief.
I have been reminded that I do not know how to write a book or a song or a poem. I don't know how to heal physical ailments or help people tap into dimensions of themselves they formerly did not have access to. I don't know how to guide people to their next step. I don't know how to move energy or initiate others, or to accurately dream or envision future events. I don't know how to do any of these things, although they all happen through me on a consistent basis. As we all continue to increase our energetic frequency we will find ourselves in these higher dimensions bringing the gifts of the Soul to planet Earth, in service to Life.
So, I guess you could say I have been observing myself moving further out of the way in these last few months, and remembering the main thing I 'do' is something I don't know how to do, and never will know how to do. Aaaah, there really is no comfort for the small self in this whole deal, is there?
One last thing to share today:
The other main awareness in regards to this Living Beyond Belief thing, was that there were some definite traits of those who were a really good fit for the classes in the past-- those who the class really served on a deep level and who were ready to embark on the Living Beyond Belief adventure:
If these resonate with you, realize that you are really in a good space, even if things seem a bit 'interesting' as of late:
~You are at a place in your life where you are not greatly bothered by what others think of you ( or this is a significant goal you are working on right now); Authenticity and integrity to the Self is more important than looking good to others.
~You are willing to live outside of your comfort zone, to let go of the illusion of control.
~You are aware of a dimension of consciousness you do not yet have access to and/or are aware of self imposed limitations and ready to look at whatever is in the way of living in Freedom/ Oneness/ Joy on a consistent basis.
~ You are no longer interested in intellectual spiritual debates and instead are interested only in sharing from the heart and in first hand experiences that brings forth the Truth within.
~You have a high level of faith and trust in the Universe/Self and are not living in fear of "losing your little life".
~You are highly motivated and willing to invest in your true life and true self on all levels.
Well, so there is my 'share' for the week. We will see if and when the flow is to start this Living Beyond Belief online class-
this time well aware of the perimeters and what needs to be involved so the the specific energy that comes through is present....
Blessings & Love, and Happy Spring, and here's to an amazing
Life Beyond Belief
What with our interviewer having a last minute emergency on the first call, then several technical difficulties, then a flow that took me somewhere else for a bit, it seemed the message coming through in regards to the online Living Beyond Belief class was definitely, "not now". So, it went on the back burner. And then the mad scientist aspect went a bit nuts and put everything on the back burner and went out and sat in nature and such for a few months.
From this, it feels a much deeper understanding of the work has now revealed itself. And, after this extended time in reflection I can share with you today this great insight that has come and which can now change everything :
I have NO IDEA how to do what I do.
And, not only that, but I really have NO IDEA what it exactly is that I do.
This may not sound like much. And in fact, it may sound a lot worse than not much. But it really does define the Living Beyond Belief energy and "how to ditch the life your mind created and start living the one your soul intended". Simple. You don't. You will never be able to do it. And, if you find you are the one that is doing it, it's not it. It's your mind creating it's idea of something that it thinks is good or has been conditioned to desire.
And of course there is nothing wrong with creating a good life for yourself, it is just that creating a good life is not exactly Living Beyond Belief.
I have been reminded that I do not know how to write a book or a song or a poem. I don't know how to heal physical ailments or help people tap into dimensions of themselves they formerly did not have access to. I don't know how to guide people to their next step. I don't know how to move energy or initiate others, or to accurately dream or envision future events. I don't know how to do any of these things, although they all happen through me on a consistent basis. As we all continue to increase our energetic frequency we will find ourselves in these higher dimensions bringing the gifts of the Soul to planet Earth, in service to Life.
So, I guess you could say I have been observing myself moving further out of the way in these last few months, and remembering the main thing I 'do' is something I don't know how to do, and never will know how to do. Aaaah, there really is no comfort for the small self in this whole deal, is there?
One last thing to share today:
The other main awareness in regards to this Living Beyond Belief thing, was that there were some definite traits of those who were a really good fit for the classes in the past-- those who the class really served on a deep level and who were ready to embark on the Living Beyond Belief adventure:
If these resonate with you, realize that you are really in a good space, even if things seem a bit 'interesting' as of late:
~You are at a place in your life where you are not greatly bothered by what others think of you ( or this is a significant goal you are working on right now); Authenticity and integrity to the Self is more important than looking good to others.
~You are willing to live outside of your comfort zone, to let go of the illusion of control.
~You are aware of a dimension of consciousness you do not yet have access to and/or are aware of self imposed limitations and ready to look at whatever is in the way of living in Freedom/ Oneness/ Joy on a consistent basis.
~ You are no longer interested in intellectual spiritual debates and instead are interested only in sharing from the heart and in first hand experiences that brings forth the Truth within.
~You have a high level of faith and trust in the Universe/Self and are not living in fear of "losing your little life".
~You are highly motivated and willing to invest in your true life and true self on all levels.
Well, so there is my 'share' for the week. We will see if and when the flow is to start this Living Beyond Belief online class-
this time well aware of the perimeters and what needs to be involved so the the specific energy that comes through is present....
Blessings & Love, and Happy Spring, and here's to an amazing
Life Beyond Belief
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
Getting a Clue~ And the Whole Enchilada
After a LONG period of incubation and reflection it seems Spring has sprung me out of the cave. The cozy little RV cave.
Well, at least to write.
After getting up here last August to Nevada City, Ca, following a vivid dream a year before, it is clear this is Houston Major Tom. We have landed. After four years of travel in the RV, this is the place we are set to anchor in and call home. There will be more stories of the previous RV adventure, I'm sure.
In fact, there had been an initial plan to write while on the road, but alas, that was not the plan after all. There have been many of these, 'not the plan after all' episodes.
It seems now the plan was to go deeper in. Continue practicing and adventuring and sharing and serving, but just not in the way I had imagined it.
This morning a few things have come to mind during this reflection, as I look back over the last decade or so- ever since the initial awakening and the book came through.
It was in 1996 that an inner event changed my life completely, which I share about in the book, Living Beyond Belief; How to Ditch the Life Your Mind Created and Start Living the One Your Soul Intended.
After this inner shift I began receiving calls from people in crisis, sometimes those I barely knew, and found I was able to provide assistance. There was also a gift of being able to assist people in accessing awareness of latent gifts and talents, and also release limiting or destructive patterns.
Although I had written poetry since I was young, I had not previously written songs, or sang publicly, both of which began to happen after this internal shift and awakening.
I have received letters from around the world sharing how the Living Beyond Belief book has changed their life- sometimes people don't even remember buying the book or know how it came into their possession! They talk about it being more than a book, but an experience.
The book was written in two months time and definitely came from a very high frequency.
You can purchase the book here:
http://www.amazon.com/Living-Beyond-Belief-Created-Intended/dp/1933538597
You can also go to the facebook page and share any Living Beyond Belief stories you might have:
https://www.facebook.com/pages/Living-Beyond-Belief-with-Jaia-Lee/124609904903
The thing is, when the book initially came through, I was guided to print it, but never really marketed it. In a sense I really didn't know what to 'do' with it all, and it seems a part of me was still trying to do something. People would say, Jaia, you've got to get that out there. People need this. you need to do something.
And, it was a bit confusing, because it felt true on one hand, but everything that came through in the book was about not doing something. It was about following the inner guidance no matter what. Tuning in to the flow. And, the flow seemed to be, hang low.
And, even with temporary pushes, guided mostly by inspired readers urgings and requests, I've managed to do that hanging low thing quite well.
It may change soon. I suspect.
I'm currently facilitating the 12 week class at a local spiritual center and the energy continues to create 'beyond belief' changes and shifts in people's experience.
It's a gift and a blessing to serve.... to be available to the deepest expression of the soul... and to follow the flow... no matter what!!
Blessings & Light,
Jaia
Well, at least to write.
After getting up here last August to Nevada City, Ca, following a vivid dream a year before, it is clear this is Houston Major Tom. We have landed. After four years of travel in the RV, this is the place we are set to anchor in and call home. There will be more stories of the previous RV adventure, I'm sure.
In fact, there had been an initial plan to write while on the road, but alas, that was not the plan after all. There have been many of these, 'not the plan after all' episodes.
It seems now the plan was to go deeper in. Continue practicing and adventuring and sharing and serving, but just not in the way I had imagined it.
This morning a few things have come to mind during this reflection, as I look back over the last decade or so- ever since the initial awakening and the book came through.
It was in 1996 that an inner event changed my life completely, which I share about in the book, Living Beyond Belief; How to Ditch the Life Your Mind Created and Start Living the One Your Soul Intended.
After this inner shift I began receiving calls from people in crisis, sometimes those I barely knew, and found I was able to provide assistance. There was also a gift of being able to assist people in accessing awareness of latent gifts and talents, and also release limiting or destructive patterns.
Although I had written poetry since I was young, I had not previously written songs, or sang publicly, both of which began to happen after this internal shift and awakening.
I have received letters from around the world sharing how the Living Beyond Belief book has changed their life- sometimes people don't even remember buying the book or know how it came into their possession! They talk about it being more than a book, but an experience.
The book was written in two months time and definitely came from a very high frequency.
You can purchase the book here:
http://www.amazon.com/Living-Beyond-Belief-Created-Intended/dp/1933538597
You can also go to the facebook page and share any Living Beyond Belief stories you might have:
https://www.facebook.com/pages/Living-Beyond-Belief-with-Jaia-Lee/124609904903
The thing is, when the book initially came through, I was guided to print it, but never really marketed it. In a sense I really didn't know what to 'do' with it all, and it seems a part of me was still trying to do something. People would say, Jaia, you've got to get that out there. People need this. you need to do something.
And, it was a bit confusing, because it felt true on one hand, but everything that came through in the book was about not doing something. It was about following the inner guidance no matter what. Tuning in to the flow. And, the flow seemed to be, hang low.
And, even with temporary pushes, guided mostly by inspired readers urgings and requests, I've managed to do that hanging low thing quite well.
It may change soon. I suspect.
I'm currently facilitating the 12 week class at a local spiritual center and the energy continues to create 'beyond belief' changes and shifts in people's experience.
It's a gift and a blessing to serve.... to be available to the deepest expression of the soul... and to follow the flow... no matter what!!
Blessings & Light,
Jaia
Monday, July 18, 2011
The Problem with Truth
It has been said, and lectured, noted, DVD'd and otherwise, that truth is inconvenient.
But, if you think relative truth is inconvenient, just wait until spiritual Truth comes knocking at the door of your awareness.
The problem is, you are not who you think you are.
That, is a big, big, problem. I mean, think about it. If you don't know who you are, how can you know who anyone else is either? How can you truly help if you don't know yourself or others, or, more accurately that there is no self and no other, that there is only One of us here?
The short answer is, you can't.
The long answer is, you can appear to serve them. You can serve who you think they are, and in the process, the part of them who thinks they know who they are can feel served. And you will feel very good about it because you are also serving who you think you are.
This level of service is not bad or wrong. It's just that it is an illusion.
You just have to be aware that in all of this, you are not necessarily serving Truth.
You are not necessarily serving Love, Life, Beauty, Freedom.
You are not serving Reality.
We talk about this issue and that issue, and these people and those people. But who are we really talking about? What are we really talking about?
When you are unaware that you don't know who you are, it's not really a problem. All of the little rules you have created. All of the little identities you live from. All of the little goals and dreams. All of these are safe and sound, and you can go on living from these little ideas of who you are.
But when you start to read things like this, you begin to have a problem. When you begin to place yourself in gatherings and groups of those who are Awake, and awakening, together, to the One, you will start to have a real problem.
You will start to see yourself in a way you have never seen yourself before. You will start to see others in a way you have never seen them before. You will notice that all of these things you did for self-protection, self-promotion, self-anything, will start to feel very silly. Whether you were doing them because of a genuine fear that you had, or, because of others convincing you that you "had to", it will just not make sense anymore.
So, while there are annoying little details, like having to restructure your entire life, as you become aware of the Truth of Who You Really Are, don't despair ( and you won't be ), there are also positives as well.
No more being manipulated by fear, guilt, shame. No more blaming others (yeah, sorry, maybe that should go in the annoying details list), no more worry, doubt, depression, and no more inhabiting a little mind of little ideas, and little plans, and little fears. No more being run by a little despot of thought, acting from there, and mistakenly calling it living.
As the Truth becomes made Knowing in your awareness, you won't be run by little fears. You will become aware of the things that really matter. You will come to know it is no accident you are here on the planet, and even though you may have been spiritually asleep for decades, the Truth will set you free to your real purpose. It will challenge you to fully live. And to fully serve. Not the way that small mind thinks you should, but the way Truth guides you to.
It will remind you that you are not here for you, you are here for Us, for Life, for Love, and that there is, through free will, an actual possibility that you will leave the planet without doing what you came here to do. There is an actual possibility that you will have missed your opportunity to serve Life, to access and share your deeper spiritual gifts, and in doing so, missed the entire point of your existence on the planet at this time of transformation, transition, and New Earth manifestation.
To the Soul, that is not just an inconvenient truth, it is a devastating one.
So, before you sit down to read spiritual enlightening material, or go on a meditation retreat, or pray to know the Truth so that you may be a brighter point of Light on the planet and serve the true purpose of your Soul, just remember that it might not feel or be all that convenient, but, at the end of the day it will be Real, and to that little mind of small realities and small truths, it will definitely be Beyond Belief!
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